Dear Journal Chapter 1 (for lack of a better name)
June 3rd, 2009
Today was my 14th birthday. It was a bummer. I went to Awanas today and Carla was there with another girl. Carla and I had a fight over it and now we're not friends anymore. I hate her! She called me a, well, she called me hard names. I thought she was my best friend but now I see that she was just a two-faced liar. Mom always warned me about people but I just thought I could have one friend that truly loved me! That's my 6th failed friendship. It's back to just Mom and I again. But I love my mom, and she loves me. I'm glad she's not like a lot of other moms that snipe at their kids all the time. I asked mom if I could stop going to Awanas and she said yes. I'm so glad! I don't ever want to see Carla again. Not after all those hard names she called me. I already know what my dad was, and what he did to my mom. I don't need people to tell me. I just want to live the life of a normal kid.
Mom understands. Mom always understands everything. She hugged me when I told her about Carla and she cried with me. I love my mom! I don't know what I would do without her. She asked me today what I would think about being homeschooled. I asked her to let me think about it for a while. She understands.
There was one big blessing today for my birthday. Today one of the new moms asked me to nanny her three kids on the weekdays. I think I'll tell mom that I want to be homeschooled. That way I'll be able to nanny for Mrs. Pederson.
June 5th, 2009
I told Mom that I want to be homeschooled yesterday. And I called Mrs. Pederson to say that I can nanny her children. She will be there but she has to take care of her husband because he is bedridden. I think she said he has cancer but I'm not sure. The kids are Robert (he's 7), Hanna (she's 4), and Kendra (she's 5 mos). I am going to start right after the 4th of July. I can't wait because I love kids. :)
Mom is glad that I will be nannying for Mrs. Pederson because she really likes her. I think she's a nice lady.