Verging on Empty

Fiction By Madeline // 1/16/2013

It's an odd sensation. As are all sensations, in their own quiet ways. More than a tinge, not quite a tickle. The perilous between-stage that always seems to claim the most indecisive victims.

I'm one of those. And I fear that I always will be, as I tuck my head between my knees. You know, heartbreak isn't literal. I've read it more than once, but it never seems to sink in. Heartbreak is actually headbreak--all of everything originates from our minds.

And what does that say about us? About me? That I let it hurt me, that I define that hurt with something that doesn't even exist.

So is the hurt still legitimate?

I don't know. I don't know anything about myself anymore. That's what happens, when you don't use your mind. When you don't think, don't feel. Just let the pieces fall where they may.

It's a dangerous thing, this. I'm verging on empty. And to make it more dangerous still, I don't care about the hollow places.

My heart still beats. My mind still tells me to breathe.

But I'm saying to myself, Ouch.

And it's not literal. I have no scrapes. Or wounds. Nothing mars my skin except that scar I got when I was a child--when I fell in the gravel.

My mind told me it hurt, then. But my mind also told me when the hurt went away.

And this time? What if I don't care enough to tell it to leave?

Go--it's all I ever have to say. Go, and don't come back.

Ha. But it's a funny thing, having that power.

That much power, and you're usually scared to use it.

That's where I am, right now.

Where I am when I finally fall asleep.

Past my bedtime, a night-owl insomniac.

As my mind relaxes; for a moment.

When my heart keeps beating.

Comments

Random.

Nice little (random) piece. I like it. Sort of like a back-round/behind the scenes into someone's heart. Yes, I like it....every bit. :) So I can't pick out anything.

Maddi | Wed, 01/16/2013

Goodbye? Oh no, please. Can’t we just go back to page one and start all over again?” – Winnie The Pooh

LOVE LOVE LOVE. This is such

LOVE LOVE LOVE. This is such an interesting concept, and very well written. I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

Erin | Thu, 01/17/2013

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

Thank you guys for reading!!

Thank you guys for reading!! :)) It means a lot!

I'm seriously lost without Reaching Rachel to post...LOL! I'm like, "ARGH?! What now?" So this is what happens. x)

Thank you so much!

Madeline | Fri, 01/18/2013

everything was better when/you would call and I'd be like/yeah babe, no way

Very nice! It's quite a

Very nice! It's quite a beautiful piece...

Flying Past Clouds | Sat, 05/04/2013

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