Accountable~Loved (36)

A Poem By Kassady // 11/15/2014

Accountable
High expectations, 
For the next week to come, 
And I write this more, 
To hold myself accountable, 
To shake off the laziness, 
Clinging to my bones, 
That comes with the changing of seasons, 
The cold changing my mind,
Making my goals seem less inviting, 
Somehow draining the inspiration out of me. 

Human Again
Wish there was someone, 
To help keep me awake, 
To call me in the morning, 
Talk with me until the morning fog lifts, 
Until I become human again. 
I wish there were someway to ensure, 
Waking up like this, 
But better,
Every morning, but there really isn't.

 
Weak
I'm not sure how to take this, 
This friendship that's blossomed through distance, 
Not sure if I should be concerned,
With falling into a habit,
But your timing can be unpredictable,
So I guess I shouldn't worry.
Maybe instead I should be nervous,
At how close you were today,
To my heart, 
Just missed the question by a hairs breadth,
And would I be comfortable?
Showing that kind of emotion,
Revealing that side of me,
When I know you think little of human feelings,
Disregarding emotions,
Like I would disregard the news,
With disdain and disgust,
Fear also. 
Would you think less of me,
If I had told you that experience?
The instance where I lost control, 
Of myself, 
The memory bringing a pink to my cheeks, 
Flickering of guilt but also pride, 
At the way I jumped into romance then, 
Without a thought. 
You probably wouldn't find it to be a big deal, 
Probably wouldn't impress or cause a reaction, 
But still, 
What if you thought less of me,
For being a slave to my emotions? 
Maybe I should be concerned, 
At how I want to please you, 
Say witty things to impress you, 
To seem smarter than I really am. 
Why am I always combatting, 
When I know you'll win? 
It makes me smile, 
The friendly back and forth, 
You seem a lot smarter than you are, 
Being sarcastic,
Proving points with "facts".
I don't know, 
Maybe I should be worried about how, 
You kind of make me feel stupid, 
Maybe this isn't healthy, 
But goodness it's just so fun,
And maybe I need the balance,
To keep my head from inflating too much, 
With all the compliments and love from everyone else. 
Sometimes I just wish you could be nice, 
Say something to build me up,
But I can just see you arguing, 
Telling me I don't need that,
I don't need confirmation if I'm confident in myself. 
Maybe I should be concerned, 
That I'm not as confident as I thought, 
And I'm just weak,
Strong in my way of seeing my weaknesses. 

Kissing A Friend
Was it a dream,
Or was I awake? 
Was it my subconscious, 
Or my waking wishfulness? 
Either way makes me uncomfortable,
Yet it would be comforting, 
To know it was just a dream, 
Hate to think,
That I might daydream of your lips on mine, 
When our friendship has been my only accomplishment, 
My only victory over my emotions,
So far.

Future
The future, 
This moment, 
Don't know which to think about, 
Don't know what to do, 
Don't know what to think, 
Or feel, 
Or say. 
All I know is I'm looking forward, 
Yet glancing behind, 
Smiling at my memories, 
Crying too. 
Dancing forward, 
I hope this new year of life, 
Will be full, 
Will be new and exciting, 
I hope there's love and laughter, 
I hope it's good and interesting, 
But most of all, 
I hope there are dreams come true.

 
Loved
You never know, 
How loved you really, 
Truly are! 
I'm blown away, 
Struck, 
Heart crying sweetly, 
For all the words,
Telling me, 
Saying, 
I love you! 
I am so blessed, 
Grateful, 
Incredibly humbled. 

Comments

Oh, I really loved Future. I

Oh, I really loved Future. I can relate to that so much, and the end was supremely lovely and kind of brought to mind visions of fairytales. The imagery was wistful, and I adored it!

I liked these others as well! This was a strong set! My only critique would be to take out the second morning to modify the line to Talk with me until the fog lifts because I don't think you need it!

HAPPY SEVENTEEN!! :) Love ya bunches!

Madeline | Sun, 11/16/2014

everything was better when/you would call and I'd be like/yeah babe, no way

Happy birthday, Kass!!! I've

Happy birthday, Kass!!!
I've gotta say that Loved was my very favorite. :) they are l beautiful.

Damaris Ann | Sun, 11/16/2014

"It is the small temptations which undermine integrity unless we watch and pray and never think them too trivial to be resisted."
-Luisa May Alcott

Thank you so much :D!!!

Thank you so much :D!!!

Kassady | Mon, 11/17/2014

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
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Write On!

LOVE LOVE LOVE Human Again.

LOVE LOVE LOVE Human Again. Actually, I loved all of these. Quite possibly your best batch ever.

Erin | Tue, 11/18/2014

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

Wow!

Wow! Thank you! I reread a few of these and they seem a bit simple. But I'm glad you enjoyed them! Thanks a bunch!

Kassady | Tue, 11/18/2014

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
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Write On!

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