Little Feet~Taking it Personal (47)

A Poem By Kassady // 2/1/2015

Little Feet
I miss your little feet, 
Stomping through the halls, 
The sounds you would make, 
And the chaos you caused. 
I miss calling your name, 
Setting your plate at the table, 
Checking to see if you've wondered, 
Making sure you're being helpful. 
Your smile and constant questions,
Your toys all over the house, 
The way you drove me crazy, 
The way you put things in your mouth. 
I miss the even number, 
Having to explain you, 
Worrying about you, 
Keeping an eye on you, 
Loving you. 
I miss your endless sentences, 
Your voice, 
I miss the sound of you, 
And your elephant feet. 

Just Friends
Laugh outwardly, 
Trying not to squirm uncomfortably, 
It makes me want to yell, 
Stand and wave my hands in the air, 
I mean is it so impossible? 
Is it just improbable for two, 
Two opposite genders to be friends? 
Everything points to a big fat yes, 
And all I want to do, 
Is close my eyes, 
Cover my ears,
Run my tongue in quick succession, 
Against the roof of my mouth, 
As I loudly drown out all media judgment. 
So who cares what society says? 
We both go against the norm independently, 
Why not also in this way? 

Jealousy Prone
I'm prone to jealousy, 
But quick to cover it up, 
Fake smile. 
Making excuses, 
Designed just for you, 
Beating myself up, 
For feeling this way, 
Resentment boiling within, 
Forcing it,
Back down to a simmer. 
I try to think calmly, 
But how could you? 
Same day, 
You had time for her, 
Despite the fact you said "sorry" to me. 
Jealousy, 
Grows unreasonably, 
Infecting the pit of my stomach, 
Poisoning my mind, 
Can't think up excuses for you, 
Only capable of thinking: 
"What's wrong with me?" 

Taking It Personal
Personally? 
Open your eyes to your *stuff, 
Like I would ever mean to say that, 
Like I would ever do a thing, 
To cause you discomfort or pain. 
Step away from your self induced drama, 
Getting high off of the problems you make, 
Can't believe you'd blame me, 
When what I said only applied to one person, 
My freaking self! 
It's idiotic, 
My groveling, 
My despair, 
Begging on my knees for you to forgive, 
While I'm apologizing for I crime I didn't commit, 
Whatever felony I'm charged with, 
Is bull*! 
The only harm meant by my words, 
Should have been for me. 
Laziness is a sickness, 
And I am ill with it, 
How could you think I would judge you,
When you simply must recover?
You can't help it! 
But I can help my sluggishness. 
I admit, 
A hundred times over, 
I am so totally not perfect, 
No one is. 
I know I'm making this into a big deal, 
Creating drama for myself, 
Just like you do for you, 
And maybe it's because I've never really lost a friend, 
I'm afraid this will be that first.
Why am I so obsessed with being the perfect friend? 
So what, 
I offended you, 
That's your problem, 
I said something that was a jab at myself, 
(So what, I make fun of myself), 
And you personally took it from my lips, 
Clinging to my words with resentment, 
Spinning your sticky web of built up annoyance, 
At my absence, 
At my "gtg", 
My "text you later", 
My forgetfulness. 
I forget, 
It's a bad habit. 
But you know, 
You're a worse driver, 
Driving on this two way street, 
Take a u-turn on Forgiveness, 
And continue straight on Friendship, 
For heavens sake, 
Stop blaming me for the distance, 
That you could easily gap, 
By a quick call, 
Or breezy "hi!" 
Just let go, 
I've cried my last tears for this *stuff, 
If you want to drag this out, 
Fine, 
Just know that I love you, 
I'm sorry you misunderstood me, 
And I forgive you, 
Now please, 
Would you just forgive me already!

Comments

Little Feet was beautiful and

Little Feet was beautiful and very sincere. Taking It Personal made ME exhausted, haha. *Stuff happens, people are crazy, and sometimes it's just not worth it! Good poem, though. :)

Erin | Sun, 02/01/2015

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

Good job with these, Kass.

Good job with these, Kass. "Little Feet" was especially sweet and "Taking It Personal" felt like a war within the reader's mind. You did it perfectly! I also love this part of Just Friends: We both go against the norm independently,
Why not also in this way?

Madeline | Tue, 02/03/2015

everything was better when/you would call and I'd be like/yeah babe, no way

Thank you both so much for

Thank you both so much for reading :) I'm glad you both liked Little Feet, and yeah Taking it Person is definitely a portrayal of my exhaustion and war within myself! Glad it came out the right way! Thank you so much for being such avid readers! Love you guys!

Kassady | Wed, 02/04/2015

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
---
Write On!

:)

Little Feet was so precious! I feel like seeing a toddler now...
I also liked Taking it Personal...my boss does that, hehe...anyway, although it was well written, I just thought that the fact that you just edited words out with an asterix, doesn't really...edit them out? People still think what they mean, or at least I do, and so editing out half the word doesn't really achieve anything. It still shows the cuss words in your writing. Which is your choice, but I just want to remind you about others here on AP that wouldn't appreciate that. Just giving you a reminder, that is all, since it probably isn't even my place.
Anyway, I think you just keep getting better and better at expressing yourself in your writing! Good job!

Maddi | Thu, 02/05/2015

Goodbye? Oh no, please. Can’t we just go back to page one and start all over again?” – Winnie The Pooh

Thank you Maddi! So much for

Thank you Maddi! So much for your comment and I appreciate your loyal readership.... Honestly? When it comes to cussing I don't cuss often and when I do it means I am extremely ticked off. I could have written a poem entirely out of swear words when I read the AP restrictions, if you know what I mean, so to be extremely unforgivably honest, I do the bare minimum to follow the rules. As long as I don't write the cuss word or go against any of the restriction I pass... So see it is as writer rebellion with respect for the rules. I do respect the rules and see why they are there... Trust me, the readers the rules are aimed at won't understand most of the asterisks if they are anything like I was when I was in that aimed for age range. I'm sorry if it's offensive, but my poetry isn't for everyone, I know that... I respect the rules, I just don't like all of them; I feel like it's saying we don't trust our younger readers to judge and choose for themselves, I believe they are a good judge of what they can and cannot read... Everyone should have the freedom to choose what's acceptable for themselves and with their own rules choose to read what they like and choose not to read the things that don't match their set of boundaries.

Kassady | Thu, 02/05/2015

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
---
Write On!

:)

You are welcome :)

As I was only giving feedback in the first comment, that is only what I'll give because it isn't even my place to be saying anything more than that.
All I wanted to say was that how can you say you respect the rules, but then go "rebel" against them...rebelling is not respecting, if you know what I mean. And yes, I know that you are staying inside the boundaries by not typing the whole word, but I'm not quite sure that's what James meant.
I'm not trying to impose my opinion on you, or trying to say you have to do anything, I just want to give you my feedback. And yes, I too disagree with some rules, but I have to ask you... how can you respect and rebel at the same time? For me, those words do not add up. Anyway, I just wanted to leave you with those thoughts. :) Have a great day!

Maddi | Mon, 02/09/2015

Goodbye? Oh no, please. Can’t we just go back to page one and start all over again?” – Winnie The Pooh

Really, really enjoyed Little

Really, really enjoyed Little Feet

"I miss your endless sentences" my favorite line. Love the memories of my own that it brings to the surface of my mind!

Raine | Mon, 02/09/2015

Thanks for your feedback

Thanks for your feedback Maddi... And I agree... But I do think you can be rebellious and respectful at the same time, it's like instead of going over the line it's standing right on top of it :P I understand what you're saying about how the not so hidden cuss words could offend some people on AP, so I'll take that into consideration... Sometimes though it's hard to find words which could replace those astericks while still maintaining the heat of my tone.
Thanks again for your feedback, I appreciate it!

Raine, thanks so much for reading :) I'm glad you could relate a bit.

Kassady | Tue, 02/10/2015

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
---
Write On!

Kass, I've got to say that I

Kass, I've got to say that I totally agree with Maddi. Sadly enough we live in a day and age that uses those sorts of words (and worse) as every-day sentence fillers. You can't walk through Walmart without hearing them.
standing on the line is just as bad as stepping over it. I do understand what you mean about respecting the rules while rebelling against them, but that isn't showing TRUE respect.
The main thing that drew me into this site was the rules, and they won my immediate respect for Mr. Dunn. I thank God for a clean writing site.
Maddi was right to say that it isn't our place to tell you not to "stand on the line" (so to speak), but as sisters in Christ, and fellow homeschoolers, it is our place to say "why don't you think about this". And it isn't just the standards of Apricot Pie, It's God's standards. "Let your yea be yea and your nay be nay" "let no vile or unclean thing come out of your lips" "keep your tongue from evil, and your lips from speaking lies".
Now, to add a few roses to the vinegar that I just gave you, I would like to say that I absolutely adore your impersonable writing style, and that even though I don't date or dance, your poetry still feels relatable because of the way you write it. Like even if I don't do the things you do I can still have some of the same feelings. :)
God bless you!!!

Damaris Ann | Thu, 02/19/2015

I am an overcomer through Christ alone, for the glory of God alone.

Damaris Ann

Thank you for your comment and it's interesting to hear other people's perspectives. I'll keep in mind in the future ways I can cover up the moments where I don't know any other way to sum up my anger and frustration...

Kassady | Fri, 02/20/2015

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
---
Write On!

Thank you so much for being

Thank you so much for being open, Kass, it's a very rare trait. I hope you don't feel like you were being ganged up on or anything, what I said is something I hope you and the other girls would have said for me if needed.
May God bless you! I hope you have an awesome day.

Damaris Ann | Fri, 02/20/2015

I am an overcomer through Christ alone, for the glory of God alone.

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