Wish I Could~Secret File (39)
Wish I Could
I can't take my mind off of you,
And oh I wish I could,
Erase the memory of your face,
Looking at me as if I had stabbed,
Deep into your heart,
And oh it's the worst feeling,
The feeling of breaking someone's heart,
Especially a heart that's proclaimed affection,
Breaking someone's heart,
Once they've said those three words.
Maybe it's safe to say:
A lot more than I should,
And it isn't fair,
Since I don't even know,
Who I'm writing about anymore.
A Hand To Hold
I never said I wanted to leave it all behind,
All I wanted was a simple kiss goodnight,
A hand to hold,
A smile to brighten my day,
Never thought that it would end that way,
Though I never thought it would last so long.
Now I can't get that song out of my head,
And every time I hear it my eyes well,
My chest aches as I remember how it felt,
Because you couldn't take your eyes off of me,
And my mind was always on you,
Even if my mind kept telling me,
Despite the feeling of a dream come true,
That you were a bad idea.
Like a filing cabinet,
I stuffed those feelings deep inside,
Hiding them behind files full of competing thoughts.
It was as if it no longer existed,
Though somewhere in the back of my mind,
Why'd you have to dig it up?
Why did you pull it out,
Slightly crumpled with letters fading,
This certain file shown in the light of day,
Like that one private document everyone hides,
I snatched it away and tried stuffing it back in,
But now it's at the top of the pile,
At the front of my mind,
Unable to forget,
No matter how much I try fitting it back,
To the bottom most corner.