When it Hurts

A Poem By Libby // 11/17/2018

When you miss someone,
what do you do?
Cry,
laugh,
try to cover it up
like you don’t
care?
Do you write about it
or tell anyone else
or cry into your
bedsheets
at night?

Why do we care?
Why should I care
about someone who’s
in my life
for just a short time
and then
leaves?
It doesn’t make sense, but
I care.
I let myself love
and laugh
and relate.
Then all of the sudden,
it all goes…

away.

I mean,
isn’t that
life?

He’s gone,
grown up,
changed.
The day he
walked on the airplane,
left us
and said
‘goodbye’,
I didn’t let myself
cry.
I smiled and
acted like I didn’t…
care.

When we talk on the phone
it’s like he’s the
same person, but
different.
That’s what hurts
the most.
We were best friends.
And now,
something’s gone wrong.
I email him—
and he doesn’t
respond.

It’s like he doesn’t
care.

I won’t deny—
I miss him…
wholeheartedly,
fiercely
miss
him.
And sometimes
I wish I didn’t.
I wish I couldn’t.
I wish I didn’t have
feelings…

but I do.

I even hate him—
sometimes—
because I want him to
come home.
I want him to
regret
his decision
to leave us.
But do I?

All I want is for
time to turn
back;
to sing with him,
laugh,
make fun,
just live like we did
before.
I want to be happy
and enjoy the
close relationship we had
before.
I want to listen to
movie soundtracks,
guess which ones come from
which movie,
dance to the beat
when no one’s around…

Just like before.

Am I wrong?

Comments

*cry*

Oh goodness, Libby, this is beautiful and hits home! Wonderful job. I always enjoy your poetry so much. <3

Heather Jones | Sat, 11/17/2018

psalm 84:10 esv / *thumbs-up*

Aww girly. I have to echo

Aww girly. I have to echo everything Heather has said. <3

Damaris Ann | Sun, 11/18/2018

I don’t thrive off of chaos: chaos thrives off of me.

Oh, thank you!!

I am so glad you enjoyed it :)

Libby | Mon, 11/19/2018

“The gospel alone is the power of God unto salvation.
Therefore, suffer, yes. Be misunderstood, yes. Be shamed, yes. But do not be ashamed. For the joy set before you, take up your cross, follow Jesus, be shamed and despise the shame!" -- John Piper

Libby, I love this poem to

Libby, I love this poem to bits, mainly because of how genuine and raw it is. I felt your frustration and your pain. I gotta say I relate to it in some ways. I have to remind myself as well that God brings people in and out of my life, and it's all part of His greater plan. That I have to just trust that the pain I'm feeling right now won't last, and I'll look back at the good times instead. You reinforced that in me, and I thank you for that.
I'm praying for you and cheering you on! <3

Madalyn Clare | Tue, 11/20/2018

"To live is to love with the passion of a thousand stars. To love is to live despite the pain of a thousand scars. Anything in between is a passing shadow." ~Michael Joseph Murano

Thank you Madalyn. <3 Thiat

Thank you Madalyn. <3 Thiat means so much to me.

Libby | Mon, 11/26/2018

“The gospel alone is the power of God unto salvation.
Therefore, suffer, yes. Be misunderstood, yes. Be shamed, yes. But do not be ashamed. For the joy set before you, take up your cross, follow Jesus, be shamed and despise the shame!" -- John Piper

Thank you Madalyn. <3 Thiat

Thank you Madalyn. <3 Thiat means so much to me.

Libby | Mon, 11/26/2018

“The gospel alone is the power of God unto salvation.
Therefore, suffer, yes. Be misunderstood, yes. Be shamed, yes. But do not be ashamed. For the joy set before you, take up your cross, follow Jesus, be shamed and despise the shame!" -- John Piper