The H Word

An Essay By Maddi // 10/20/2013

Yes, the dreaded hormones. Younger siblings tease you about them, older people groan about them, and we do some pretty stupid things because of them.

Hormones are part of why you feel you want to kick the dog as soon as you wake up, or adding ‘damn’ to every other sentence.

Hormones are also part of why you feel blissfully happy for no particular reason, treating everyone with grace and happiness. And everyone’s thinking, “What's happened to them?”

Then the next day you’re back to “I hate life.”

Has anyone ever felt like that? I certainly have.

I’m not saying that we can blame everything stupid we do while in our teen years on hormones, because that would end in big problems. No. Everyone is still responsible for their own actions.

I remember doing something really stupid and dumb not that long ago. I was apologising to a person who wasn’t that much older than me about it. They said: “It’s okay. I’ve had hormones too, you know.”

Of course, that didn’t excuse me for what I’d done wrong, but reminded me that mistakes are a part of growing up. It’s a good thing we learn from them.

It’s funny how exciting our life careers were when we were younger, before reality made its appearance.

5 yr old: “I want to be a ballerina!”

Me: “Ha, nope. No way have I got the body for that.”

8 yr old: “Let’s be politician, or a debater, or someone smart.”

Me: *In the courtroom, about to counter an argument* “Excuse me peoples, I have a mind blank.”

10 yr old: “I can’t wait to grow up! It’ll be so much fun!”

Me: “If only you knew.”

11 yr old: “I love soccer! One day I’ll play for Australia!”

Me: “I definitely do not have the patience to practise every day, since I have no guarantee that I’ll make it to the Matildas.”

12 yr old: “I know! I’ll be a hairdresser!”

Me: *cuts sister’s hair and fails* NOBODY WOULD TRUST ME.

For the past 12 months, I have being chucking around ideas of what I want to do when I “grow up”. It has been SO hard because I am a very indecisive person, even between the littlest things…like whether to have a bowl or plate for lunch (in case you’re wondering, it does make a huge difference…it was a hard decision).
Some of the ideas I had went teaching, hairdressing, authoring, physio, sports coach…then counselling came up.

It has stuck for quite a few months, and I think it might just be it. I am a people person, and just have this certain compassion for people who are dealing with depression, drugs, self-harm, that kind of thing. And I want to help them. So, if it’s God’s will, that just might be what I do. But I still haven’t a clue if that’s really what I want to do with my life.

Thank goodness that is perfectly okay.

My ideal life would be having a family of my own. But I’ll leave that up to God. See what His plans are.

So…after a year of feeling like growing up sucks, (which sometimes it does) I’ve come to realise that growing up does actually have its benefits. Yes, there will be times when I want to hibernate for 20 years. Yes, there will be times when I want to smash everything in sight.

But growing up isfun. Hey, we get to drive! I mean, I have had some lessons out on a property, and it was flipping fun. And we do get to get a job, although it is a pain in the neck getting one (I’m in the horrendous process).

There is that scary little process of making our own decisions. But hopefully we will become pros at that in no time.

So good luck to everyone! I’m pretty sure we will all grow up to be mature adults. But, of course, young and free at heart.

Comments

So glad you did one of these,

So glad you did one of these, too! I enjoyed having yet another perspective. It's interesting how--depending on the person--we each focus on different things. You added a bit of humor into yours, which was refreshing.

Oh, don't worry. I have the hardest time making decisions, too. Sometimes I'll just be like, "Can you make it for me?" to my mom. We laugh about it. Even when I go to get shoes, it's the hardest thing. (Do they fit right? What if they don't after I get them?). Eventually I just give up and get the shoes. :P

And my temper definitely gets the best of me sometimes! LOL! So I get that aspect too. I smiled at: Hormones are part of why you feel you want to kick the dog as soon as you wake up Hahahahaha.

Okay, so--I agree. ANYONE want to continue this? Guy or girl? :) Maybe we can unofficially make October Apricot Pie's Time To Grow Up Month? Haha. James, what do you think? Honestly, it would be really interesting to get a new perspective from the same people every year as they age. haha

Madeline | Tue, 10/22/2013

everything was better when/you would call and I'd be like/yeah babe, no way

:)

Thanks! Yeah, its been really good how everyone adds this new perspective. I have these really wild hormones, so...I decided that would be my focus.

YES! That's a sick idea! That'd be really cool. I hope someone continues it....PLEASE, SOMEBODY??

Maddi | Wed, 10/23/2013

Goodbye? Oh no, please. Can’t we just go back to page one and start all over again?” – Winnie The Pooh

*takes off hat* I do rise to

*takes off hat* I do rise to the challenge that is carrying on this noble tag...
Haha I definitely feel this way though; last week I was sunshine and butterflies but this week I've been "I will set you on fire if you breathe in my direction, mere mortal!"
I've read everyone's btw, and they're ALL excellent! :'D I've just been lazy and not talkative lately so there's that...
But I will write it! Hopefully I won't OCD too much and it'll be done this weekend... :)

Flying Past Clouds | Thu, 10/24/2013

:P

Thanks for reading--and commenting!!
Yes, write one! I'm looking forward to it...
Lol, don't worry...I think we all OCD a bit. :D

Maddi | Sun, 10/27/2013

Goodbye? Oh no, please. Can’t we just go back to page one and start all over again?” – Winnie The Pooh

Haha!

You know what! I was just thinking about hormones a few days ago!!! Weird.
Thanks for posting your point of view of growing up! I love all these points of view, because everyone is different. I am a lot like you too, for me, I'm very emotional and am driven entirely upon emotion... like sometimes I feel with overwhelming emotional that is so strong that I can't even think, I can't give it a reason, or I don't even know what kind of feeling is it, which is quite scary because I'm one of those people who hates being out of control, it literally frightens me to tears!
Good job!!!
Can't wait to read Flying Past Clouds point of view!

Kassady | Mon, 10/28/2013

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
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Write On!

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